My name is Serene, twenty-one this year, usually people don't believe. i love any kind of sports, taking new challenges in life. Dancing use to be so important in my life, but well i've stop. I definetly miss those time when i'm on the stage. Came From An IJ School. Always with an IJ Spirit. How i wish i could travel around for shopping. Passion is the key of success. I am so blessed to have a lovely family.
this contains my feelings, my guilt...to the one i love..and for all who loves me.. no hard feelings against anyone....
once again...
this time..im serious. i felt so much of relax & less pressure now.. i didnt know where went wrong.. but i jus felt that it is a good ending..& perharps everyone had already come to this conclusion before it even happen..jus that is me who is bluffing myself to keep it going...
thou i felt it too* but i tot i was sensitive & that i noe the pain of lossing..so i wanna cherish..but it seems to me that i had taken the wrong step thou. i haf been naive..i haf been jus following..not physcially but mentally...
my heart*
thou words that you say are not wrong..but it may not seems to be right. everyone has their own thinking & own ways of handling things. for us we both handle differently..you need immediate reaction..but i cant.
thinking back. felt that i cannot be open up to u..perharps the problem lies here. i did try my best too..but i jus felt that u didnt noe me well enough.neither did i....
we had been trying hard to go slow...but was it reali slow??
we started off wif frens,there the trust. & became clique..been telling myself that skyhigh is something speciall to hold on for..& i know that no matter wad happen u guys will be my pillar.. from u i felt tis special feelings too..but i told myself NO before. i didnt wants to had any hard feelings. till then when i realised..is too late...but anyway things still went fine..
till the chance..was hesitated too* but i tot i didnt wan this chance to slip off..as i too haf feelings..
was it my mistake to develop this feelings??
if i haf hold on..& keep it to myself......
it too late to regret anything now...
it jus hurt seeing changes in skyhigh....
things that had happen..& things that will hppen in future..everything had change!
why must we all haf the thinking of being the bad person??does this reali help in ourself.perharps..yes.it cld protect oneself..but haf u ever tot..u r hurting the other... i noe being bad & being evil are two different things..n it is worst if u ever thinking of being evil....
but stilll to me..i cant* dun tell me to be the bad person..cos i dunno how too* i haf learned to love my enemy..n whoever cursed me..i will return blessing... FOr the LORD says, what will u get in return if u love those who loves u?? dun carries an eye for an eye* u will get nothing in the end!
i noe that i had done many things wrong & that i m a sinner. i myself..cant forgive myself..reflecting in myself i had failed in many things..i had disappointed many ppl.. thou i noe that i cld be forgiven by u LORD..but i am ashamed to face u. i chose to left u & break ur heart...u try in many ways to get me back.but i refuses... & i noe i deserved all this now..is a punishment to me. i haf realised my mistake. im repending LORD.. im scare..
i felt so lost & lonely at times. im helpless to do anything. i dunno who to turn to but u LORD. will u forgive me?
is there a chance for me to glorify u LORD?
how can i keep away from satan..
im so useless..tinking that im so easily cheated..i reali hate myself.
everyone will change but the nature of U will always remain inside..tis can nv be changed!!!!
u are not to be blamed...it was me who bring tis to myself.. i accepted the punishment. im not regretting... nothing is forever.(to u) ...but to me(i believe there is) u had seen so much of negatives stuff.. but no matter how negatives..there is always happiness too*
it's onli when u believe!!!
i noe that tis is not my path of life & that i had taken the wrong path.. it time for me to take a step back!!!
but im still happi that u had come across in my life. hoppin that, skyhigh wld return to the moments of fun, where nobody will be hurt.
i choose to believe that u didnt meant to hurt me & that im not jus a passerby.. becos of my believe. till the end of my life...onli u will haf the answer.